Yes...Today is St. Patrick's Day,
but it is also the birthday of
my own Dear Mother, who
left us some years ago now.
She was born in 1934 and would
have been 76 today. I cannot
even wrap my brain around that.
I still see her through my eleven
year old eyes...
The picture I posted above I
found online about seven or
eight years ago when looking
for sepia pictures of American
Indians...what it represents to
me is that we all truly have a
twin who looks like us, and this
one jumped out at me like she
was trying to tell me something.
I have also seen this woman in
the picture in my deep meditation
times...going down into Mother
Earth to meet who was supposed
to show up at that time...
I wish that I had a picture on my
computer of my mother to post
side by side so you could see the
uncanny resemblance to one
another...and I am going to make
it a point this year to get that
done. I do need to digitalize
some of our family pics! So
today I celebrate St. Patrick's
Day for the wee bit of Irish in me,
as well as celebrate the Mother
who bore me and the Portal Day
she chose to come into this world.
It is bittersweet. But I have at
long last come to terms with her
passing...as in the eyes and heart
of a young child myself, I held
anger in my heart at her passing
for too many years...now it is an
unfolding for me each year as I
learn better ways of 'seeing' her.
I have felt her presence with me
all morning long...and have had
a bit of a cry as I do still miss
her so very much...wishing she
could be with me, but wishing
won't bring her back. What is
important is that I can feel her
essence...fully, and without
reservation, and know that I
was loved by her....
So today I dedicate this video
to her as it was and is a long
time favorite in our family and
one that is sung when gathering
in family reunions...
Today I honor your Spirit Momma...
And I thank you for the lessons
you brought to me. The easy ones,
the hard ones, and the loving ones.
3 comments:
What a lovely remembrance! Happy Birthday to Akasa's Mom!
You are so lovely. This really resonates with me..on so many levels for so many reasons. I'll spare you all that for now...and just say thank you. For your heartsongs and your love. I miss my Mama too...and I do so know what you mean about 'uncanny'. That whole anger piece too...I soooo get that. Good for us to have moved beyond the anger to a place where we can feel them with us again. Blessed indeed!
Hugs, Bella.
Thank You Pam and Camille...
I just remembered a moment ago, visiting my Paternal Uncles home when I was young...and on a little table by the phone was a picture of my Great Grandmother Dilley whom I had never known or seen...my Mother looked exactly like her, save for a mole on the end of her nose, which my Mom's sister has, as does my daughter...she left her mark...and my daughter resembles my mother a lot. I do have American Indian blood in me and over the past few years have been trying to do some geneology...I still think it comes from the Paternal side of my family but all I've found so far is Maternal, being on Mohawk lands, Reservations in Canada...great, great, great, so it is much removed from me.
So then, when I saw this picture it actually leapt into my heart and somehow I have a feeling of knowing with it that just cannot be explained or described...
I'm going to gather up some pics this week and get them into get done so I can post the similarities so you all can see them.
I have always felt my mother with me and she has brought me messages in my Dreamtime...and even visited me in my home where I knew instantly it was her there with me...I am a true spiritualist at heart and know that life does not end with death, but rather moves to another dimension/time continuum.
Bless You Both Hugely!
XXXOOO
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