Swimming in Piscean waters is at best
difficult for a lot of us out there unless
you are a Cancer Crab, and even they
have their moments.
Right now the energies have me
swimming in both directions...one
moment I am going with the flow of
the stream and the next I am swimming
upstream. Which way do I go, which
way do I go?
I was awakened for the third time
this week, sitting up, calmly trying
to tell myself it is just a dream.
Yah, but dreams are there for a
purpose? The messages of our dreams
can bring us clarity if we but let them?
So I am dreaming, German Shepherds,
boundaries, tax numbers and not
enough information, serial killer -
a recurring dream I've had in which I
wake up so utterly afraid I am just
paralyzed...and I've seen this man
before, but now the face has changed
to the father of my children, doctors,
another recurring dream in which they
are telling me my life spark is at its
near end, and blah, blah, blah....is it
any wonder I've had to go within my
cave?
It is safe in the cave...I have fire to
warm myself and cook with, food and
drink, my favorite bear rug to lay on
and wrap up in...her claws on the
outside protecting me from intrusion.
I have ancient writings on the walls
of my cave and I know their meaning
instinctively yet when I go toward the
opening of the cave all memory is lost.
I love the smell of my cave, all earthy,
musky, primal, from the animals who've
shared this cave with me from time to
time since time began. They leave me
gifts of bones and fur, feathers and teeth,
and I place them on my altar within
the ancient cave, as they are all very
holy and sacred to me. I have hung
my Drum and Medicine Pouch on the
stone walls within which was no easy
task as the Stone People do not like
being poked and prodded at but I
ask them please, may I please?
They are Wakan...they are holy.
But today...today I must come out of
my cave, feel the energies flowing in
both directions as I sit by this stream
and drink in life. It wouldn't do too
good to stay in the cave indefinitely
Akasa, whatever would people think?
So gently I ease myself into the cold
stream...pushing myself gently away
from the shore...and let the flow take
me where I must go today...and leave
all memory behind...within the
Ancient Walls of My Cave.
Hecito! It is so...Amen!
